JUST A FEW THOUGHTS

So i know it has been a couple of weeks since my last blog i have been doing okay just being me crazy as ever :) and trying to FIGHT THE POWER but it seems every time i try it comes back for more it is a endless fight LOL so i know most people has either what they call a theme song or a song that fits them well my song is UNWELL by Matchbox Twenty cause i am a little UNWELL LOL to all the ones that know me you know im a little UNWELL. so i had recently seen the Movie JUNO i actually was quite suprised that i liked it it was quite a fresh take on the whole teen pregnancy story i found the character to be smart witty and wise even at 16 yrs old i mean i know it is a movie but you felt the characters to be real not some fake people that hollywood likes to put in front of you with the same situation and have end all nice and lovely so i liked the movie it was fresh it did not fell watered downso another summer is coming and that means hot weather i am not a hot weather fan i like cool days with temps between 50 and 70 today it is already supposed to be in the 90's yuck dam i hate hot weatherwell anway got to go for now see you all on the DARK SIDE

WAL MART AND MOTHERS DAY

so anyway this past sat my mom needed some things from wal mart and i told her i would go ahead and get them for her so on the way to Wal mart i was texting my friend val and she gave me a new name for all the idiots which i call them ASSHATS so the name she gave them is FUCK TARTS i told her that was a good one so anyway at WM(wal mart for short) mom wanted to get a rose to put on my grandma's grave she only wanted one but they had them in a case for like $10 and she didn't want to pay that much plus she only wanted one so anyway we got the stuff she needed and so pay for it and after i pay for it at the end of the counter mom sees single roses for 2.50 so i pick one up and look for a short line thinking dam i hate WM so i pay for the rose and on the way out i said out loud and this lady that worked there had to hear me i say this is why i hate WM anyway if WM promises lower prices everyday shouldn't something be free by now LOL

So on Mothers Day i went out with my mom and my aunt (mom's sister) to the cemtary to put roses on several graves i put the rose on my grandma grave and just stood there in my own little world even though my mom and my aunt is close by i stood there and had a little cry even though my grandma has been gone for 2 years there is not a day i do not think about her so i go home and i had to go for a walk cause i just had to think and it seems i do my best thinking on my walks so i text my friend Valerie and we text back and forth it seemed to calm the thoughts and made me a little better so it was a okay weekend just a little depressed on sunday but it is all good now well see u all later on the dark side

SLOW DOWN AND MY 1ST ATTEMPT AT A POEM

So once again im thinking about life in general and the biggest question is why are people are in a hurry to get from point A to point B don't they know it would be nice to stop and smell the flowers or even stop and say hello to a fellow neighbor that you haven;t talked to in months becuase you get in a hurry to get to where you have to go and you see them doing 80 MPH on the interstate why not for once take the backroads and enjoy the time you have on mother earth becuase it isn;t going to last forever take the time and listen to a friends problems they will thank you for it and probably tell u that it meant more to them that you were there to listen then anything in the world cause we are need a friend who listens and if they make fun of u or even judge u they aren't your friend anyway a friend is someone who won't judge u for the way u are

And Now my 1st attempt at a poem

Im Sitting in the dark waiting for you to come to me
you are not home but not here just yet
are you on the way or running away from me
you said you would be my friend til the end
did i scare you or did u scare urself
you don't answer my text or even my calls
are you drving here or far away
it's dark where im at are you the light that shines
im scared and cold where i lay memories flood past my brain
you said you would be here if i ever needed you but u aren't here just yet
i hear faint footseps but whose are they are they yours or are they a strangers
someone knocks on the door i stumble to the door open it and find you on the other side i ask where am i and you say with a friend that you needed i say thank you for being here i wasn't sure you would be here and you say im always here for you now im all warm and happy knowing that you are here right beside me wherever i am

so to the ones that read these tell me what u think of the poem i can take it it was just a 1st attempt anyway and it just came to me so be kind to one another

Joe

GETTING DRUNK AND DEALING WITH THE HANGOVER

So Friday night i went out and got drunk with my friend Valerie and it was a blast i guess according to her after i was trashed i was saying all kinds of stupid shit espically when i did the whole calling people drunk i don't remember shit but i do remember having a blast i think i called my older brother who then i called my Nephew both while drunk i don't remember the coversations but according to Valerie i made comments that i wouldn't make sober but she forgave me so anyway we get to my house and im like so totally trashed i fell as i was getting out of her car luckily i fell onto the grass and not onto the driveway. so i go to bed and all through the night i had a hard time sleeping cause i couldn't get warm even though i am covered with a blanket so i get up about 6 and somehow manage to down 2 hot cups of coffee but my head is pounding my brother texts me and ask me if i was hungover i said yes then he ask if i was going to get drunk anytime soon i said no LOL so my nephew calls and asks me how i was i said my head is still pounding he then asks you was really drunk like he didn't believe me i said yes i got trashed then i get a text from Valerie who says ur glasses are safe in my car and i thought dam that is where they went But all in all it was a blast.

FRIENDSHIP

So it is 7:08 on a Sunday morning and i just downed my 1st cup of coffee and it tasted good with the sugar and the caffiene which i don't totally wake up without both of those drugs. So i went out with Valerie on Friday night and i got Drunk for the 1st time i wasn't even planning on it i was just planning on having a few drinks but i just let things lay where they were and i got drunk. Over the past month we have been friends i mean we did know each other from Elemtary school over 20 years ago but that was then and this is now. but anyway over the past month that we have been friends it's like i am finally coming out of my shell and doing things that i would not normally do like get drunk and tell someone all my secrets. i have lived on this planet that we call Earth for 33 yrs now and i have never been able to tell anyone all my secrets but i was able to tell her over the 1st weekend it's like we had made a connection right off the bat. it is awesome to have a friend that totally gets u and some people say well a woman and a man can;t be friends well i say BULLSHIT yes they can as long as they have a understanding that it is just freinds and nothing more. but she totally gets and understands me. i know it sounds crazy to make a connection that fast and i wasn't used to to the whole let's spill everything on the first weekend but it just happened. im acutally glad that i now i have a friend like Valerie cause we all need a friend that we can go to with all our troubles and just do fun things with. i actually sat here typing this suer long post but it felt good to acutally sit and release some good things and not just another rant which i have been known to do well anyway see you all later

Joe