ASSHATS

Hello once again so i am sitting here think of all the asshats in the world three things that piss me off while out 1: people who talk on thier cell phones while driving hello asshats pay attention to the fucking road i hope one of the fuckers get hit by someone talking on the phone. 2: The ASSHATS that has to pass u up just to fucking turn at the next intersection or get off at the next exit geesh what asshats these people are. 3: people in fucking general people just seem to piss me off. okay another group of people piss me off the people that call u and when u say Hello they say who;s this hey fucker you called me. the news anchor that wants to tell me that the 2 pandas in the zoo didn't fuck 2day i don't give a SHIT if the 2 pandas didn;t fuck 2day yesterday or 2morrow i got more pressing issues to deal with then 2 pandas fucking. okay enough dam ranting just had to rant it has been awhile

FOR VAL

This post is for Val. Valerie im sorry for all the shit i have done i didn't know it bothered u that much but to be frank i think u was leading me on making me think one thing then all of a sudden think the opposite i mean im sorry but how am I supposed to feel with all that. any guy would feel led on when someone does that not just me and why in the hell are u mad at me for going bowling we both agreed that we would take some time apart so i mention i might go bowling then u get all pissed off at me. what am i just supposed to wait around for you to go bowling im sorry but i felt like going bowling today so i did im sorry for being pissy assed last night but i was tired and sometimes when i get tired i get pissy assed it was not you it just i was tired and felt drained i just didn't know how much this shit has bothered u but don't u see how the shit u have done can make a guy feel led on i can understand will u would be pissed at me for that and im sorry for it but can't understand why u would be pissed cause i went bowling.i think it is best that we take some time apart either that or have a long talk about this in person then decide what is best

Afraid of Getting Hurt

so my friend Val came over Sunday and we took a drive to a local lake to drive and why on our way there we had a talk about what happens if we tried the whole couple thing we sat there and talked and even though im not into the whole couple thing we both said we would have to talk about it more so on our way back we did have a kiss and then last night she wrote a blog saying that she doesn;t want a relationship which i understand cause to be truthful i don't either becuase i am afraid of getting invovled in a realtionship becuase of the fear i have of getting hurt espically by a friend cause i do love her but as a friend i know i have pushed the line at times and for that i hope when i tell her i am sorry for anything i have done to her that has made her mad at me i mean that i am sorry for it i think we are friends i hope she knows i still want her as a friend and nothing more cause i am afriad of getting into a serious realtionship i just sat and thought about it after i read what she had to say and found out from my own thinking that all i want is her friendship so i hope she can accept my deepest apolgies and hope we can still be friends.

IT'S COFFEE TIME

SO SITTING HERE DRINKING MY 2ND CUP OF COFFEE WITH SUGAR OF COURSE I DON'T NEED THE SUGAR TO MAKE ME CRAZY HELL I ALREADY AM CRAZY LOL. SO SITTING HERE LISTENING TO THE NEWS AND IT AMAZES ME HOW BIG OF A DEAL THEY ARE MAKING WITH THE NEW IPHONES THAT ARE OUT TODAY BIG FRIGGING DEAL IT IS A DAM PHONE IT IS NOT LIKE WE HAVEN'T SEEN A PHONE BEFORE DAM. SO SPEAKING OF THE NEWS IT WAS REPORTED THE OTHER DAY THAT AT A LOCAL PARK THEY ARE GOING TO START SHOOTING DOWN DEERS BECAUSE OF OVERPOPULATION AND I CAM UP WITH A LITTLE SONG THAT THEY CAN SING IT GOES IN THE STYLE OF 99 BOTTLES OF BEER HERE IT IS

99 DEERS IN THE PARK
99 DEERS IN THE PARK
TAKE A GUN SHOOT ONE DOWN
98 DEERS IN THE PARK

I HAVE A WEIRD SENSE OF HUMOR BUT THAT IS OKAY CAUSE I DON'T GIVE A FLYING PAJAMAS WHAT PEOPLE THAT THINK THEY CAN KISS MY NICE ASS IF THEY WANT :)

JUST A FEW THOUGHTS

So i know it has been a couple of weeks since my last blog i have been doing okay just being me crazy as ever :) and trying to FIGHT THE POWER but it seems every time i try it comes back for more it is a endless fight LOL so i know most people has either what they call a theme song or a song that fits them well my song is UNWELL by Matchbox Twenty cause i am a little UNWELL LOL to all the ones that know me you know im a little UNWELL. so i had recently seen the Movie JUNO i actually was quite suprised that i liked it it was quite a fresh take on the whole teen pregnancy story i found the character to be smart witty and wise even at 16 yrs old i mean i know it is a movie but you felt the characters to be real not some fake people that hollywood likes to put in front of you with the same situation and have end all nice and lovely so i liked the movie it was fresh it did not fell watered downso another summer is coming and that means hot weather i am not a hot weather fan i like cool days with temps between 50 and 70 today it is already supposed to be in the 90's yuck dam i hate hot weatherwell anway got to go for now see you all on the DARK SIDE

WAL MART AND MOTHERS DAY

so anyway this past sat my mom needed some things from wal mart and i told her i would go ahead and get them for her so on the way to Wal mart i was texting my friend val and she gave me a new name for all the idiots which i call them ASSHATS so the name she gave them is FUCK TARTS i told her that was a good one so anyway at WM(wal mart for short) mom wanted to get a rose to put on my grandma's grave she only wanted one but they had them in a case for like $10 and she didn't want to pay that much plus she only wanted one so anyway we got the stuff she needed and so pay for it and after i pay for it at the end of the counter mom sees single roses for 2.50 so i pick one up and look for a short line thinking dam i hate WM so i pay for the rose and on the way out i said out loud and this lady that worked there had to hear me i say this is why i hate WM anyway if WM promises lower prices everyday shouldn't something be free by now LOL

So on Mothers Day i went out with my mom and my aunt (mom's sister) to the cemtary to put roses on several graves i put the rose on my grandma grave and just stood there in my own little world even though my mom and my aunt is close by i stood there and had a little cry even though my grandma has been gone for 2 years there is not a day i do not think about her so i go home and i had to go for a walk cause i just had to think and it seems i do my best thinking on my walks so i text my friend Valerie and we text back and forth it seemed to calm the thoughts and made me a little better so it was a okay weekend just a little depressed on sunday but it is all good now well see u all later on the dark side

SLOW DOWN AND MY 1ST ATTEMPT AT A POEM

So once again im thinking about life in general and the biggest question is why are people are in a hurry to get from point A to point B don't they know it would be nice to stop and smell the flowers or even stop and say hello to a fellow neighbor that you haven;t talked to in months becuase you get in a hurry to get to where you have to go and you see them doing 80 MPH on the interstate why not for once take the backroads and enjoy the time you have on mother earth becuase it isn;t going to last forever take the time and listen to a friends problems they will thank you for it and probably tell u that it meant more to them that you were there to listen then anything in the world cause we are need a friend who listens and if they make fun of u or even judge u they aren't your friend anyway a friend is someone who won't judge u for the way u are

And Now my 1st attempt at a poem

Im Sitting in the dark waiting for you to come to me
you are not home but not here just yet
are you on the way or running away from me
you said you would be my friend til the end
did i scare you or did u scare urself
you don't answer my text or even my calls
are you drving here or far away
it's dark where im at are you the light that shines
im scared and cold where i lay memories flood past my brain
you said you would be here if i ever needed you but u aren't here just yet
i hear faint footseps but whose are they are they yours or are they a strangers
someone knocks on the door i stumble to the door open it and find you on the other side i ask where am i and you say with a friend that you needed i say thank you for being here i wasn't sure you would be here and you say im always here for you now im all warm and happy knowing that you are here right beside me wherever i am

so to the ones that read these tell me what u think of the poem i can take it it was just a 1st attempt anyway and it just came to me so be kind to one another

Joe